Man, I am having a shitty shitty night.
I'm feeling the full weight of this pregnancy for the first time, and working the night shift ain't helping any. I hurt all over and I'm more tired than I've been in months.
Of course, being tired puts me at the mercy of my hormones, which are running wild tonight. Where normally I'm strong, tonight I am weak. Overwhelmed with the enormity of the task before me, feeling lost and lonely and abandoned. And of course, positive that my future holds nothing but an endless string of users, abusers, and straight up losers in the man department.
And I was going to come home and tell y'all all about it. Break my own rule about bemoaning the shitty hand I've been dealt. I just want someone to hear me whine, dammmit!
Lucky for you ( and for me too ) I got on the horn with my best friend in the whole wide world before I sat down to unleash the self pity on my blog. She let me whine and even cry a little, listened as only a best friend can do, and agreed with me on many points.
Then, in the nicest, sweetest possible way, she told me to pull my head out of my ass.
Yes, she said. You deserve to feel sorry for yourself every once in a while. You've been put through the ringer. That's when you call me. And I will tell you what a dumbass you're being.
You are not weak. You are strong. You are not overwhelmed. You are dealing just fine and you will continue to kick ass and take names, because that is what you've done all the twenty years that I've known you. What you are right now is tired, and hormonal, and in need of a shoulder to cry on. And that's okay.
I'm here for you, and
You will be okay.
Best friends truly are the shiz.
Children of the Tao: Ten Tips for Peaceful Parenting
11 months ago
Reading about your road trip inspired me! Inspired me to take more random adventures with little one, take lots of pictures and learn from these ideas of great Moms like yourself (:
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wow! Thanks for commenting, Lori! It's a lot of work to take a little one on the road, especially alone, but the benefits to both mom and babe make it all worth while!
ReplyDeleteI was just about to hit the hay, but you have inspired me to get a start on my next post - about another amazing adventure!